Long time no see everyone!

I have been rather happy last few months! For no particular reason! but I like my current life now! The pharmacy is still a busy madhouse, and I have rude patients every now and then (including drug abusers) but I am still happy. Maybe everyday I still have many nice patients and am thankful we establish a friendship within the last few months! And I got a good rest every weekend and I am grateful for that.

I fell in love w manicure recently. It has been my hobby few years back but I gave up thanks to lab work in school. well actually i also cannot apply during work but i cant be bothered. :) And Ilove signing up groupons for manicure!

I am so looking forward to 2012! Going to Japan for a long holiday and Hanoi for a short one! And all going to take place in the first half year! Happy!! :D

And year end bonus is coming!!!

one of my dear colleague's mother passed away recently suddenly, and she refused to say the reason. she wasnt someone really close, but i really tot i was lucky to meet someone like her at work. she has a heart for patients and students, was a good farmer and teacher.

it was so sad to see her crying non stop at the wake. for she is someone who is normally so cheerful. even once when she was shouted at by one male patient, she didnt even drop a tear. and the male patient alr made someone cried earlier one. so it was really upsetting to see her cry everytime each visitor comes. and her eyes were so swollen.

i cant help her much except to hope she gets up again and be strong, for she still has a long way to go. meanwhile, i am really afraid that i might lose my loved ones anytime too. dun u tink this is so scary? the thoughts of how my uncle passed away suddenly last year came back, and i cant help but feel life is really fragile.

working has been so tiring recently i am thinking of a change again. it is seriously a manpower shortage over here, why are we not doing anything!! Rush rush rush from monday to friday! I dun like such hectic working life. :(

Locum at AnE is good. Money is good! Am happy working there. I want to earn enough money so that I can faster clear my uni fees then think of my next step in life.

my first official leave day as a pharmacist today. chill chill chill. =)

so i was really busy last week cause my friend from US came for a visit. it was a good thing cause to everyone of us, it was a chance to get together again. I get to see the guy classmates, and of cos my sec school eye candy. He looked the same, and it was amusing when he told me his younger sister is in my course. Gosh, I cannot imagine if she turns out to be my student next time. Thanks Cat for coming back, and I hope she do well in her phd in harvard. Gosh this seems like an impossible path in my life. :(

and happy birthday lab partner! (:

every now and then, the tot of leaving and starting anew comes in. and i got disturbed. below are some reasons:

1) i cnt stand the working hours. i am becoming more n more anti-social cause i am so tired and everyday i feel so weary after work. maybe i worked too hard, but i prefer to give 100% at work cause i am dealing with people's lives. because i am so tired, i am abit sick of gg out. esp if its consecutive days.

2) i am getting sick and i am sick of not able to get mc. as in u know u can still function, but not at the best. so whats the point of gg to work? its so dangerous

3) i seriously think my work is hell-like. enough said.

4) i am so careless. ever since that error i committed, i live in the fear everyday i did sth wrong. everytime someone called my name, i have this fear. u know errors are sometimes inevitable, but we cant use this reason in my job. cause someone will get hurt if i made an error.

but i really enjoy my job because i get to make alot of meaningful interventions and counselling. even if nth was made, i made meanings to the use of the medications. i never forget my patients, and i always look forward to seeing them. not tat i am cursing them, but they are on long term meds, and i hope to see them coping well.

so do u think i should leave?

do you remember what u used to say last time?

we got a party coming up to welcome the new pre-regs and to celebrate alot of random stuff, and guess wad! I(and my fellow ex-pre regs) have to organise! Well, even though i am not the head of the organising team, i am sick of gg for meetings and coming home to do slides for the party! >.<

And i got one extra work to do now - ward check. duper unhappy. =(

i was so tired on friday that i immediately went to arrange a massage session the next day - saturday! thank god i am silly enough to waste that money, cause i think it was well-spent! Now, am thinking of the package ... hmmm.

And do u think i should go for the facials too? >.< i am so stressed over the waiting time at my workplace i got acne outbreak. gosh i dun even have that during viva. or should i go see a skin doc in the workplace cause i got staff benefits anyway?

i keep telling myself i shouldnt worry as much cause i am only getting that small amt of pay, but i cant help feeling irritated when people are not working as hard or slacking during work. just kill me.

the nice boss is leaving. we had a dinner last friday tgt, with the rest. i could see he was very tired. take good care of urself!