my mother bought a new laptop wire for me, now I dun need t struggle with that laptop with Windows 7 which i dun know how to use! :):) Damn cool universal laptop wire, can use for all brands! I hope it dun catch fire easily!

oh ya, am at inpatient rotations now, where people said it is the hell of the hell. of cos its tiring, but i am rather enjoying myself most of the time at work. Had pleasant working partner and mentors! And that particular pharmacy got alot of nice foods at the back for me to snack when I want to slack. Awesome! Am at ICU till next week. A lot of sick patients here! Its sad to see people so young struggling to stay alive.

I have been having incidents of stomachache every now and then for 2 mths plus? Ever since I laughed at my friend for having diarrhea. Nowadays, I feel very afraid when I ate cold food or ate too fast, cause the gut cramps are so painful sometimes. :(

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Last weekend, my laptop wire caught fire suddenly. As in, I on my laptop, then I suddenly I saw a small fire and smoke.... It was damn scary for someone so timid like me, lucky I am smart enough to off the thing at once and not faint. Then i went to open all the windows and threw my laptop at one area, cause I tot it may explode anytime. Didnt dare to call anyone cause it will only make them worried. But that night, I cant sleep.

My sleeping pattern has been really bad. Reached home at 9pm plus, slept/do random stuff till 11pm, msned and cleared some admin work till 1130pm, till off to bed till 4am plus to wake up to finish my work. Then to prevent myself from dying early due to lack of sleep, I recovered all my sleep debt during the weekend. But the weekend is too short, and I m really tired, and thats explained for my sometimes atypical behavior. Sometimes I am just too tired to feel anything. And I hope one day I will be too tired to feel sleepy.

And as usual, somehow we always looked like we dun know alot of things. everyday go back with a whole lot of questions and patient cases to look at. the stuff for me to look at is stacked till so high I should change my cupboard alr.

Nowadays, I totally loved going out on Sunday in jeans/shorts. And though am not hungry, I look forward to lunch everyday and my TDS dosing coffee. :)

there are so many things I wanna do. Read chinese novels/gossip magazines, watch drama, msn with rx to ask how is him, organise outings and go eat high tea lol, go shopping.... but sometimes I really feel I should sleep more if I have any free time.

It is a pity I didnt go and see the yog opening ceremony. Cant find anyone to go with me. And am too tired that I am feeling immunocompromised now.

TIRED. Nowadays am so tired I dun even have energy to have dreams or talk in my sleep. :(

I am looking forward to saturday and sunday! :)

Was messaging cheryl on my way back home today, then reached tampines and alighted. then i saw someone like her at the train station! I tot I was hallucinating cause I was sleeping on the train jus now, so I walked away without saying Hi. She also didnt say Hi and after that I asked her, that babe was really her! It is such a small world!

The end of the journey seemed so far away suddenly. initially i was all looking forward to ward rotations. now, when i am in it, it is only day 2 and i felt so tired already. Such a loser.... And I really want to sleeppppppp.

I never like looking for answers myself cause it is such a long process. But the thing is, I cant ask for spoonfeeding now cause I am supposed to be independent. :(

First day of ward rotations, no more packing already! Congratulations to myself!

Actually I don't know what to start writing about. Nowadays, at the end of every day, there are so many emotions that I wanna write here, but i am too tired by the time i reached home.

Got a nice farmer to follow with today. Actually people here are generally nice. And i got a really nice partner to work with, and I am really sorry for my childish-ness. :( Sometimes am just too tired that I lost my temper oops, which sometimes I dun know why too haiz. One day i think he may just pull my rebonded hair and ask me to shut up haha.

Work has also made me more aware of my own character, and I am terribly disappointed. The biggest weakness in me is that I am very complacent and tends to wait for the answers. I need to be reminded that I need to be thick-skinned and hardworking t0 learn the most out of everything.

I went to cut hair today to make myself look younger lol. I want my youth back! And i Went to buy clothes again! Tot the top looks nice on the fake model, but then I just tried just now and am disappointed. :(((( I look so short!

gone are the holidays. all good things come to an end ya? I got to work very hard tonight to get ready for the ward rounds tmr, woohoo!! :)

going for tuition soon ...