and i am so glad rx remembered my bdae this year! Take care and I look forward to the day we meet up again with full attendance! There must be some parts in your life when you experiences the downs, so that what comes next will be the ups!

it felt weird to work on my bdae cause i self declared it as holiday actually. well, made mistakes here and there today (not alot okay) cause was in holiday mood. others also made mistakes though today wasnt their bdaes lol.

having a very bad dry cough now. i woke up last night coughing very badly and tot i was experiencing breathing difficulties. it all started with a painful sore throat last weekend. The whole workplace is full of virus and even my partner was down with cough few days ago. i think you need to be damn healthy and be on an overdose on vitamin c to stay healthy. and we are all too busy to drink water every now and then. and given the stress and the amt of time to rest everyday.

i think i am getting psychotic soon. one part of me tells me i am sick and should rest, the other part of me tells me i am actually just lazy and should go to work. one day, i will end up in ward 12.

i got very irritated this morning at work. i admit i am someone who dun like shit to happen on me as i dun give people shit, and i really tried my best to stop my temper sometimes. but it just got abit too much today when everyone made mistakes and expect me to give them what they want. and i got cramps .... okay excuses! that's why when i went back, i kept very quiet cause once i open my mouth, i will start complaining non stop. and thats scare my partner off lol. i am not someone who will bear with everything and still smile smile cause i know thats bad for health lol!

I think teamwork is really impt at work. you can give your best, but if your team of colleagues is not with you, everything will be wasted. everything is a team-based effort. i think its very sad when everyone start to push responsibility and feels happy when you are not the one making mistakes and its others. cause at the end of the day, the patients suffer the most. of cos when mistakes happen sometimes, i really cant help much cause i dun even know how it occured. as a newbie, i may only create more probs. but i would love to help those i can.

I made a hell-lot of mistakes the last few days. and i am glad the mistakes are getting lesser, my name was only called once today(I think)! I think thats not because I escaped, but that I learnt through all the mistakes. Now, my eyes really open big big when I do packing! I hope this will get better!

I am glad I have this group of people with me for pre-reg. Some who I never talk to for 4 years in school and yet they are still so nice to me. We celebrated the june babies today!

happy birthday to myself! I am so looking forward to the dinner tgt. Having a dinner with my friends of 10 years is the best present! I am so proud of that! :)

did nth this pseudo weekend. disappointed that am going back to work tmr already. i want to go holiday! my friend jus went bali, missed the nwa experience there alot!

one day, i may die alone at home due to the unbearable cramps.

went to collect my grad gown today. one step closer to the real graduation. ;)

i think currently am still considered quite slack cause the rotations haven fully start yet. but then somehow, i am feeling really tired. at some time in the afternoon, i will feel like taking a nap (like suddenly!) and everything people said just sound like nonsense. and that's when the irritation comes in. sigh, i hope things get better. :) DISCIPLINE!!

i went to walk around the wards today, as we were refilling and checking the e-kits. very sad to see people suffering. i am so weak i told myself to walk faster in and faster get out of that place, because i dun want to see patients suffering and their face in pain yet i cant do anything.

heard abt the hospital's plans today. honestly, i feel very inspired. i told myself this is really a good place to practise and develop, i see a future with it. but somehow there is this fear inside me .....