yesterday, i was so eager to get out of the hospital that i walked out of my farm in my white coat. i forgot to take it off! it was so damn embarrassing.

seeing how hard other people is working now makes me abit worried, but its okay. must be positive! :)

i feel terribly sorry that i misheard someone as scolding me as and losing temper at that person. Really, i feel damn bad, but i guess whats done cant be undone. :( i seriously need to do sth abt my ears.

i think sometimes am a pain in the ass in others' eyes at work. i am really sorry when i made those mistakes, but i do try very hard. today, someone told me to walk faster at work. :(

was damn nervous when i interviewed my patient today. needs to improve on this.

My fyp supervisor came to my farm today! Was damn happy to see her, I dun know why. We chatted for a while, after which the queue started coming in, so I had to ask her to go one side and wait. she told me she dun know i am working there now, its kinda disappointing cause i told her already! She forgot! But now I think she will remember it!

did sth different, outside of drugs, and i think i made someone life happier today. I thank the person for bringing the smile on my face once again. :)

I have a family where everyone aims to be very clinical too. My parents have their own views on their health issues and risk factors and of cos their own perspectives on drugs. Like before they went for their health checkup, they tell me they know whats the doctor gg to say alr. As a allied health member, I feel anything can happen to you anytime cause its fated. the best way is to prevent and treat as early as you can. Pls dun act like a doctor!

things are getting more and more absurd. and i am losing my patience. on everything, everyone. Trust me, i know what i am doing, what i want, and i know things are getting out of hand. am feeling so helpless yet so alone, shit. :'(

I wont be writing here anymore for the time being, till i see the sun again.

i feel right, i am so away from the world right now. Even when i go out, i feel tired and the tot of gg back to work made me sad. I got so much to do, yet the motivation is so limited. I want to go holiday, and i am going start planning one for december so tat i got sth to look forward in my life.

is falling apart soon.....