I think one thing I would never get used at work will be to eat alone. I feel that's something very sad cause there are so many people in the hospital, yet I cant find anyone to eat with. I remembered the first day when I am left to eat alone at work, I am at a loss cause I finished eating so fast then I dont know what to do next. Its getting better, now I go to the cardiac clinic to read newspapers. :) But maybe with time, it will get better and who knows one day, the phobia will be gone.

When someone of my age has already become a mother of 2, I am still so childish and not independent. I feel useless sometimes. Argh. :(((

OMG I cant believe less than 8 weeks, I am getting registered as a pharmer. Gosh! >.<

One of the best things i ever learnt in pre-reg is learning not to take things for granted. I tend to be a very whiny person last time. But recently, I think I have changed, though I still am a little emo lol. in fact, I think I am a very lucky girl. I have nice friends, and of cos one of the best mummies in the world. :)

I think I am going to be psychotic one day. :(

there are always some periods of the month when I always feel lousy and feels I am nasty to myself.

I feel bad for my dear family. They were not supportive of my OCIP initially due to the long hours and I always fell sick due to overwork, but I told them things will get better. Then FYP came, and I told them things will get better when I graduate. Then pre-reg! Tada! Tell me, when will all these end?

Today, when I answered for the test, I wondered why nth was allocated to family. :(

I always feel why I cant even manage simple things myself properly. Like confirm felling sick if I overwork for 3 to 4 days. I am nwa I really cannot believe it.

Need to camp at MRO next week .... :(:(

I was trying to do some marketing at the supermarket just now but i got lost! and i dun know what cooking oil to buy! Damn lousy! Determined to learn more marketing/cooking after pre-reg!

I think I am lousy haiz. :(

In the 3 weeks in hospital when my grandfather was hospitalised, so many people passed away in that same ward. It is so emoing to know life is so fragile and it seems so easy to die. Cause you heard their family members asking the doctors to try their best. And for my grandfather, he is in so much pain and suffering sometimes. Life is so unfair isnt it.

I just had a great weekend though. met up with lab partner for chat, went to USS for photoshoot with colleagues(got fireworks!!!), then shopping today. Now, I got to write that antibiotics report! Life is really unfair!

My rotation finally ended, and I am happy. It is just not a place for me. I may seem I am very confident, but I dont feel good giving answers I dun feel confident of. It get struck in my mind for so long and I dun like this feeling. I feel lousy cause I dun know how to use excel or do nice slides or write nicely, in the end I got into arguments or my partner has to redo for me. I feel bad about it but he thinks I dun feel anything. I am just not someone who can write well, and I dun think I blog well too. +.+ And there is minimum patient contact, I feel bored sometimes.

But I am glad its over! I learnt alot of interesting stuff though! =)

So glad tmr got PSS. It seems so long ever since the last time I see everyone again. :)

Finally, my grandfather is going home tmr! Discharge liao!!!!

Happy birthday YH! Working is never like studying, mistakes are bound to happen. Just need to learn from mistakes!:)

Why is this world so complicated? DI questions are complicated, my korean show is complicated, the 9pm show is complicated, even my friends are getting more complicated! Help!

I feel very thankful for whatver I have in my life. I have a loving family and great friends who never fail to help me or make me laugh even though I have a lot of stunts! >.<

Horrible monday blues during work today. DI is boring cause I can't open my mouth and gossip but can only msn or fb! And I got so much work to do! And the phone likes to ring when I am alone! And people from all over the place call and ask me for answers! Hohoho! Cool max! :)

Had an awesome end to 2010. Went out with my taiwan gang, though char was absent. We first went 15 minutes, then to bugis arcade, then we drove to padang then we got off the car, then woohoo watched the fireworks from there! Then we went back to tampines for macdonalds then went to airport again! Thats when I got stomachache thanks to the mocha at mac, then i feel so tired and nwa, and I wanted to go home so badly HAHA. Thanks the guys for the awesome celebration, the best gift in 2010 was knowing the 2 of you. :)

In 2010, I ...

a) graduated from farm with 1st class. I still cant believe I got it sometimes, and I think my parents dun believe too lol. I am really proud I made them proud.
b) went to taiwan with cheryl babe and my 2 new friends for close to 3 weeks. Had fun, and I do hope the friendship remains
c) started pre-reg and my friends thought i was still studying cause i am still as busy and poor.
d) was damn emo cause my uncle passed away suddenly. i never forgot how he left us at the hospital's ICU, and till today, my heart squeezed when I go near that room.
e) had a hard time managing and coming to terms with 2 grandfather's conditions. I cant imagine why i cant help them at all.
f) started to give my parents a better life by bringing them out for more meals. I am very happy of this!
g) became more indepedent than ever cause my mother became the main caregiver for my grandfather and sister went to hall, most of the time, i am alone at home.
h) lost weight. Yeah! :D (how? i dun know why too)
i) became really emo sometimes cause i cant adapt to working life. and I miss my friends alot.
j) made new friends, and I hope i didnt lose my old friends. To my friends, though I didnt talk to you much nowadays, I really treasure you. Just like recently I saw those OCIP photos on fb, I really miss my cambodia DAD gang.