I think one thing I would never get used at work will be to eat alone. I feel that's something very sad cause there are so many people in the hospital, yet I cant find anyone to eat with. I remembered the first day when I am left to eat alone at work, I am at a loss cause I finished eating so fast then I dont know what to do next. Its getting better, now I go to the cardiac clinic to read newspapers. :) But maybe with time, it will get better and who knows one day, the phobia will be gone.

When someone of my age has already become a mother of 2, I am still so childish and not independent. I feel useless sometimes. Argh. :(((