If there was anything I think which is unlucky, it would be the painful cramps that i have on some months. today i had Sunday duty, and this is enough to cause pain. cramps started around 10am, and it got so bad i almost fainted and cant stand straight. :( Asked around for panadol but nobody has. its really a torture cause i know 100000000 tabs of panadol is just at the corner but i cant take them! Finally, someone got naproxen, i hesitated to take cause i didnt had breakfast. however, i still took it and ended up with gastric pain. :( So, I had both pain going on at the same time and ended up vomiting at 12 plus, and cried alone in the toliet before going back to work. :((((( and i cant take mc cause then my sunday duty wont be counted! Gross to the max!

christmas is coming. if you are my friend and you are thinking of a present for me, panadol menstrual is sweet enough. it is so expensive i always save on it and not take it for prophylaxis and ended up suffering.

And my study patient was hospitalised yesterday due to diarrhea. I got reminded of my uncle who had the same incident but then ended up leaving us. I dont dare to assure her that everything will be fine, even though she looked fine. overall, it was an emo sunday.

Painful cramps. I came back and slept all the way ... And I still feel very tired. :'(

And I only drank 1/4 glass of milk tea last night! I shouldnt be so greedy seriously!

At the Cancer centre for rotation now.. Damn not familiar with all the drugs, and i hate to find out the compatible diluent or stability ... its like so what right lol. Lunch timings are very late. Plus I keep washing the trays will i backache... It is the sink design Yah! And today, i stayed back till 830! OMT!!!

But it is so cold there ... I am thinking to wear my korea winter clothes to work! With the act cute earbands. >.<

Thinks I am very lucky hee! =)

I feel very terrible when I cant help you. :(

Had a great weeekend before I really sit down and start mugging for my viva. Finally, celebrated best friend's birthday. Hope she likes the present though I wrap until very ugly. -.- saturday, my friend rode all of us around the city! It is different this time cause he bought it on his own! And its quite expensive de. Woah! ^.^ He bought it after working for 2 months! I worked for 4 months, and I dun even have money to buy a good tyre! Sigh, different fate lah!

Tmr going to a new rotation. Everyone said its tough. I am more worried if i offend the supervisors there. given my tendency to guess answers ... :(:( Pray that the good deeds that I have done all these years will be converted into good karma to last me for 2 weeks. For the bad stuff i had done, i shall repent 2 weeks later okay ....

nowadays gatherings are discussions on work promotions, bonuses, salaries, housing and marriage. so stressful, sigh! :(

there is a stinging sensation on my nostrils the last few days thanks to the haze. everyday on the 95 bus back from work, i always whined how hazy the outside is! cause i was indoors for the whole day ma!

previous previous night didnt sleep well cause was rushing through some slides for a ppt, which ended up being postponed. and previous night was even more disastrous cause i ended up sneezing till i got fever. but i still went to work today ... head was spinning the whole day, plus today i was reviewing some private wards where everyone comes from all over the world with all types of conditions. the first patient i dispensed has her fingers choppped off (yeewww i almost gasped when i saw her, very sorry!) and then i got one SJS patient. Yeah the Headache worsened after i saw the patient (i so terrible right!) I hope tmr i get to go back to the general wards!

Ended the day well with a dinner with my sister. since her uni started, she went to stay at hall and i hated the nights when i had to sleep alone in the room. And we went for family dinner the previous previous night. Nice. =)

i dun know where t start studying for viva. i dun even know how to pack the notes. -.-

Oh i need to write sth .... that day i panicked cause i cant find my phone, so i rushed back to the pharmacy to find it. then my supervisor saw me and asked me what am finding, then i lied to her her that am finding my notes. but then i still cant find, i decided to sneak to the wards to give a miss call to my phone. Guess what, my phone was actually on my supervisor's table, so when i called, she knew abt it cause it rang and she saw the ward number! So paiseh! I seriously dun know when I put my phone there! Lying is not good oh!

happy birthday shufang! =)))))

Work has been good. I have a lovely bunch of colleagues who for most of them I seldom talk to in school, and I am glad pre-reg has allowed me to know more about them. Some of them are really good at crapping, I love those small chats with them. =)

The preceptors at this hospital are so good and helpful that I never regret making the decision to travel so far everyday to work. I am really amazed and touched by some of their actions, esp when people do sth extra out of what they are supposed to do.

My partner is nice as he always lend me his phone to play bejeweled. I also dun understand why i am so crazy over that game! But today, he said cannot play liao. :(

Many times, I feel very lucky I didnt give up on my pre-reg and choose some other route. I really love clinical work currently, though I think perhaps this may change over time.

Except for the times when I have to do sunday duty, or when i need to stay back till damn late in the hospital, or when studying becomes a chore rather than an interest, or when i feel damn lost and alone at work, and of cos every monday .... at these times, i feel like quiting ... but i dont know where to go from there, so i hold on.

But actually, work has been good. at least i got a job. =)

you are not someone i can ask help from.

but then again, i shouldnt expect people to help me from the start.

I woke up at 845am when i got a lecture at SGH at 9am. Oh shit, am so thankful shufang called me.

I just had 2 small gatherings with my gang at uni and my taiwan gang. I missed my uni gang cause they are one group of people i can tell them abt my dreams and they are there to tell me whats wrong or correct. they are frank in their words, and they are a group of people to work hard and joke with. For my taiwan gang, they are a group of people good to whine and we love saving money!!

I had started work for 4 months plus .. and I really miss school life. there are alot of people I miss .... Those people I once took 95 bus and the train with, my lab partner who will understand my jokes and poor english, and the study gang ...

okay lah, next post i will tell abt how much i love my work hahah.

going cycling tmr! hope it dun rain!

I have been sleeping before 10pm for the last 2 weeks. Too tired and I cant be bothered to do anything when I reached home. If a real farmer works like that, I dun mind! =))

Today, I had a tough day at work. My senior caught my mistake and was told she needs to observe my dispensing. My colleague caught my mistake and was told he wont trust me anymore. :(

Then, there is this sickening patient who die die must use her own medications cause she bought from specialist. Hello, if you are so rich, dun come to a govt hospital! Waste my time cause I need to OT to settle her case! Pissed.

It will be good if happiness and luck have a long half life.

Nehs are evil! They scold people without thinking! =(

am happy cause I bought clothes today! It is sometimes very troubling to think what to wear to work everyday cause cannot be too lousy right! Heh. Yay and got offer!

side thought: Sometimes I dont understand why you dun like me so much but you can be so nice to someone else who is not nice to you!!

There are currently some issues with my ocip team accounts, after close to 2 years! Such a pain in the ass! Argh!

OMGGG I got to work this sunday! Stock takee ...... =(

okay should stop whining. at least i got a job yaaaaa. =x

today was one of the best days i ever had at work though I woke up late at 725am and refused to take cab(rather missed CE)! Grand round was fun, lunch had fried chicken wings, case discussion with the king was scary yet fulfilling, dinner was back at sci canteen (and not alone), and a nice meetup! =)

am on attachment with the clinical guidelines king this week. He is so tall I feel tired after talking to him. back to the emo ward when all the elderly are suffering in pain. But there is this cute ah ma who always smile when I smile to her, though I think she is not mentally alright. But it is good that she is still 'happy'? And I heard from the nurses she likes people to help her tie hair!

You never know I actually do remember everything that you once told me ya. even though there is an eraser in my brain. hehe. :)

I ran 5km today. After such a long time. and i feel great! And lighter too. ^.^ The bad thing is, I was in damn unglam clothes then i saw my farm eye candy. He cant recongise me, and I have to go up and say 'hey thats me'!

I am quite sad when people say it is quite tiring to work with me ....

I got so many pimples now. I think I did too much face masks that the pimples are getting the nutrients too.

oh my tian i forgot to dispense one drug today so i am gg to deliver to the nursing home next week myself! Home delivery wor! And its a drug that is so expensive and needs to be refrigerated! Someone just kill me please!

tonight's dinner was very enlightening. :):)