and i am so glad rx remembered my bdae this year! Take care and I look forward to the day we meet up again with full attendance! There must be some parts in your life when you experiences the downs, so that what comes next will be the ups!

it felt weird to work on my bdae cause i self declared it as holiday actually. well, made mistakes here and there today (not alot okay) cause was in holiday mood. others also made mistakes though today wasnt their bdaes lol.

having a very bad dry cough now. i woke up last night coughing very badly and tot i was experiencing breathing difficulties. it all started with a painful sore throat last weekend. The whole workplace is full of virus and even my partner was down with cough few days ago. i think you need to be damn healthy and be on an overdose on vitamin c to stay healthy. and we are all too busy to drink water every now and then. and given the stress and the amt of time to rest everyday.

i think i am getting psychotic soon. one part of me tells me i am sick and should rest, the other part of me tells me i am actually just lazy and should go to work. one day, i will end up in ward 12.

i got very irritated this morning at work. i admit i am someone who dun like shit to happen on me as i dun give people shit, and i really tried my best to stop my temper sometimes. but it just got abit too much today when everyone made mistakes and expect me to give them what they want. and i got cramps .... okay excuses! that's why when i went back, i kept very quiet cause once i open my mouth, i will start complaining non stop. and thats scare my partner off lol. i am not someone who will bear with everything and still smile smile cause i know thats bad for health lol!

I think teamwork is really impt at work. you can give your best, but if your team of colleagues is not with you, everything will be wasted. everything is a team-based effort. i think its very sad when everyone start to push responsibility and feels happy when you are not the one making mistakes and its others. cause at the end of the day, the patients suffer the most. of cos when mistakes happen sometimes, i really cant help much cause i dun even know how it occured. as a newbie, i may only create more probs. but i would love to help those i can.

I made a hell-lot of mistakes the last few days. and i am glad the mistakes are getting lesser, my name was only called once today(I think)! I think thats not because I escaped, but that I learnt through all the mistakes. Now, my eyes really open big big when I do packing! I hope this will get better!

I am glad I have this group of people with me for pre-reg. Some who I never talk to for 4 years in school and yet they are still so nice to me. We celebrated the june babies today!

happy birthday to myself! I am so looking forward to the dinner tgt. Having a dinner with my friends of 10 years is the best present! I am so proud of that! :)

did nth this pseudo weekend. disappointed that am going back to work tmr already. i want to go holiday! my friend jus went bali, missed the nwa experience there alot!

one day, i may die alone at home due to the unbearable cramps.

went to collect my grad gown today. one step closer to the real graduation. ;)

i think currently am still considered quite slack cause the rotations haven fully start yet. but then somehow, i am feeling really tired. at some time in the afternoon, i will feel like taking a nap (like suddenly!) and everything people said just sound like nonsense. and that's when the irritation comes in. sigh, i hope things get better. :) DISCIPLINE!!

i went to walk around the wards today, as we were refilling and checking the e-kits. very sad to see people suffering. i am so weak i told myself to walk faster in and faster get out of that place, because i dun want to see patients suffering and their face in pain yet i cant do anything.

heard abt the hospital's plans today. honestly, i feel very inspired. i told myself this is really a good place to practise and develop, i see a future with it. but somehow there is this fear inside me .....

there is no place that is perfect. everywhere has its angels and devils.

i have only been here for less than 1 week, i feel that even when i introduced myself on the phone, nobody will know me. So, i only addressed myself as from the retail pharmacy. in the end, there is this person who comment that i was very rude to do that, as i should introduce myself from the start.

yesterday, i packed sth wrongly. and unfortunately, it was dispensed out. luckily the mistake was found by a nurse during today's appt for the patient, and actually there is no much difference btw the correct and wrong drug. it is just a cream. okay i shouldnt think like that! but then a refund was made, and a report has to be submitted. why is it that i should be fully accounted for it? :(((

i am still making mistakes in packing. and i greatly appreciate those who teach me abt my mistakes. i am trying to be as careful as possible, but there are some drugs that are just too similar. but i really appreciate this packing experience as i really remember all the terrible mistakes that had made. there are some people you help to reduce her workload, without any mistakes, she also not happy. whatever lah.

in the late afternoon, went to the cancer centre to discuss my project. sounds impressive and challenging. looking forward to it. :):)

today was a terribly awful day. and it doesnt help by the sudden gastric pain in the morning. i thanked the high technology for the invention of sms so that i can message my friends to nag about my troubles.

met a old friend in my workplace today. her father was hospitalised. she told me roughly abt the condition and asked me if i know anything. i am once again reminded of how i told my uncle everything gonna be okay but he left me suddenly. i dun want to assure anyone anymore that everything gonna be alright, cause whatever will happen will still happen. all i could do is to hope that my friend's father can get well soon. and of cos, i asked her to message me for any drug info help hee!

its had only been 8 days and i am feeling abit sick of work. i think everyone's getting sick with my mistakes and nonsense. and for yesterday and today, someone stepped on my new damn nice shoes today, which i bought from hong kong, and now there is a black stain on the pink shoes. :(

like to go CE. think its amazing how people cover one topic in 40 minutes. :)

not feeling well.

because of the lack of sleep(nope not to rush homework, jus to wake up early to reach work at 8am sharp almost everyday), and this had caused my sinus attacks to be back. it was so serious last night i tot i had wheezing, and i felt very uncomfortable the whole day today. but luckily, there are lots of salbutamol inhalers around ahhaha, so its very safe! i only slept 45 mins yesterday, thats why today i am abit like dead. and I felt like i was on a ship in the morning.

i packed the wrong warfarin drug. :((( i didnt calculate the total no of medicine correctly. i think one pharmacist is very disappointed with me cause she changed from CP to my full name. All the pharmacists kept calling my name today. But the most impt thing is, am very disappointed with myself. so lousy, i failed terribly. :(((((

this showed how much concentration u need during packing wor! Cnat do that well when u are sick! Dun look down on that!

it must be the monday blues that is causing the slight emoness today.

new start, new blog. i decided to write all the wonderful incidents i had these 9 mths so that one day if i dun want to practise anymore/lost the motivation to continue, i have somewhere to go to.

last friday, i picked up a call from a patient and she was just discharged and she dun understand what her whole list of medicine was for. she jus had a day surgery thus she was feeling too tired to understand what the nurse was saying earlier on. over the phone, i told her one by one what each medicine was for. it was damn long, and it was hard understanding her cause she was spelling out the medicine name one letter by one letter. and sometimes, i got abit confused and had to ask her to repeat. she wasnt irritated and kept thanking me after each medicine. the whole phone call was abt 30 mins lol. of cos since i am not a real p yet, i didnt make any assumptions when i am not clear (e.g. antibitoics eye drops must use for how long), and i told her to bring all the medicine to her doctor on the next appt to understand better. :)

that session made my day. this was sth i wanted to do. thanks to my classmate who asked me to try picking up calls, and assured me it is going to be okay. :)

looking forward to new experiences. i like this place, even when i make mistakes, they tell me nicely. and this made me even more careful cause i feel damn bad lol.